As the dining room table is buried under 3 inches of Amazing truths, I think I need to take this week off and spend it getting the last of my little ducks in a row. I can honestly say I cannot wait to see how lives are going to be changed.
For the first time in a really long time, I feel like I have a purpose outside of being a mom. I wake up every morning to the sound of my cell phone singing "Good morning, good morning..." or to the sound of little voices saying, "Mommy? Can we wake up yet?" I often feel overwhelmed with Mommy stuff. For years, I have relied on my kids for a sense of self-worth, knowing that as long as I am a good Mom I can feel great about who I am. I felt as if the only purpose for me even being alive was for the girls. While I am thankful for them, they should not be my purpose for living.
The last few weeks have been so incredibly different for me. Yes, I still wake up to my kids peeking over the edge of my bed, but I get up knowing that I have something besides the girls to accomplish for the day. I have gotten so used to praying about everything (and, seriously, I mean everything) that I almost feel silly. But, God wants to know the smallest detail of my life, so I feel good about feeling a little silly.
I seriously have tons to do today, but I am really looking forward to this week! Amazing stuff today, zoo tomorrow, church Wednesday, getting stuff ready for the girls' away time Thursday, and finalizing the Amazing stuff Friday. I will run (or walk, or die) a 5k Saturday morning, and then we will see where life goes. Praying for God to use me in a big way this week. :)
If I make it to the finish line and survive the 5k, I am sure I will post over the weekend. Please keep me in your prayers this week!
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